chapter 3 : part 1 : “A little too late..”
Chris
*2 weeks later*
“did you see chris brown’s concert last night? boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy” the radio dj said happily.
“yes oh my God that boy,his dance moves and his sexiness whew! I’m about to faint! the show was bananas! Breezy is back! These dudes better step their game up!” The woman said.
I smiled as I pulled into my driveway. I heard loud music coming from my house as I shook my head.“rita not tonight..” I thought as I parked the car. “I’m too fucking tired for this shit tonight” I got out of the car and locked my doors.I started walking towards my front door. I sighed then opened the door.
“chris nigga come here!!” trey yelled over the music. I looked at all the models,cans,cups and niggas in my house.
“where the fuck is rita?” I yelled.
“she’s outside in the jacuzzi with bey!! come on nigga!!” trey yelled before he disappeared in the crowd.
I closed the door then started walking through the crowd.
“chris” a model pulled my arm. I yanked it away and kept walking. I finally got to the patio door. I watched as usher and trey dived into the pool then looked at bey and rita laughing in the jacuzzi.
“babe!!!” rita smiled.
“rita we need to talk” I walked over to the jacuzzi.
“why? everything ok?” she rubbed my arm.
“no everything is not fucking ok look at this shit” I snapped as I threw my hands up.
“babe..its a party you love partyi-“
“I do but damn! not every fucking day!” I yelled.
“chris..you seem tense here” bey held her drink out. “Lord knows I need this because I have to deal with tameka’s ass tomorrow but you can have it”
“I don’t want no damn drink!” I slapped the cup.
“babe calm down..come here” rita pulled me by my shirt. “what’s wrong cuteness? You need me to take care of you?” she licked her lips.
“no I need fucking peace and quiet rita that’s what I need! Damn don’t you ever get tired of partying?” I looked at her like she was crazy.
“not really because I live by the yolo motto ok..you only live once so hey” she held her drink up. “might as well make the best of it..I’ve partied in the uk,I’ve partied in the us and I’ll party in africa next year” she smiled then downed her drink.
“rita” I shook my head. “get all these people out my fucking house now”I turned around and walked back in the house.
“chris!! you want a drink nigga?” trey slapped me on my back.
“no I don’t want no fucking drink” I said as I walked to the kitchen.
“fuck wrong with you? I thought you was happy being with rita” he said as he followed me.
“I am..” I said unsure if I was telling the truth or not.
“so be happy nigga damn” he slapped my back again. I sighed as I sat down on a bar stool.
“you sure you don’t want a drink?” trey opened my frig.
“yeah I’m sure” I shook my head. “This shit is not for me anymore”
“what shit?” he grabbed some grapes then closed the frig.
“this shit” I held my arms out wide. “this shit is not me anymore”
“nigga..” trey sat down across from me. “this shit is the real you..you just got married and boring” he laughed. “now that you’re single..well not single but now that you’re free from the married life you can have fun like this everyday”
“This is fun?” I yelled. “this is fucking fun? fucking bitches,drinking and smoking weed everyday is fun?”
“yes nigga what the fuck?” trey laughed harder. “look you need to calm down and I got some shit for that” He put a blunt on the table.
“I don’t want that shit tonight man..” I said sadly. “when I needed that shit when my back hurt you wouldn’t give it to me but now you’re trying to give it to me every single fucking day? fuck wrong with you?”
He just shrugged and put the blunt in his mouth. He lit the tip then took a long pull of the blunt. “this some good shit” he blew the smoke in my face. “try this shit”
“man” I shook my head. “this shit is not me..” I got up and started walking towards the basement door.I looked at a couple tongue kissing against the door and sighed.
“hey nigga” I tapped him.They kept going.
“man” I grabbed him by his shirt and threw him on the floor.
“oh my God man what is your problem?” the girl looked at me like I was crazy.
“get the fuck out my way” I said harshly. She sucked her teeth then moved. I opened the door and walked in then closed the door behind me. I started walking down the stairs. I looked at all the cans and cups on the floor.”what the fu-” I paused as I looked at the big painting of my kids on the wall.
“no..no…no” I ran over to it and looked at the beer stains on it. “FUCK!” I punch a hole in the wall. “I worked on that shit for months but does she give a fuck? no she doesn’t” I talked to myself as I walked over to the big picture I drew of rita on the wall. “do you give a fuck huh? huh?” I picked a can of paint up. “nah of course you fucking don’t because all you care about is partying and fun..fun? you want fun?” I threw the paint on the picture. “you want fun huh?” I grabbed another paint can and threw it on the picture. “I’ll show you fun” I walked over to my desk and slid everything off it. I picked it up and threw it at the picture.”I fucking hate you!!!!”
“chris..” I looked over at rita who was standing on the stairs with bey right beside her.
“how could you do this?” tears ran down her face. “what’s wrong?”
I didn’t say anything. I just fell against the wall and slid down until I reached the floor. I put my head in my hands as tears formed in my eyes.
“chris..” she cried.
“leave me alone rita I need time to think” I said annoyed.
“come on rita we should go” bey said sadly.
I listened to them walk up the stairs and close the door then I broke down crying.
“shit wasn’t suppose to be like this..” I cried harder. I hit my head back on the wall continuously. “FUCK!” I hit my head harder. “kelly..why did you do that to me? I would’ve did anything for you..I would’ve died for you yo” I said as my head started hurting.”we had two fucking beautiful kids together..after all the shit I did for you you just threw me away after I got hurt? Man fuck you!” I yelled as if she could hear me.
“fuck you,fuck rita and fuck me!” I yelled. “fuck me..” I calmed down. “fuck me..cause I ain’t shit and I never will be shit..”I closed my eyes. Images of kelly smiling popped up in my head.I smiled.
All of a suddenly my cell started ringing. The ringtone was “a song for mama” by boyz II men so I knew it was mama. I pressed the green icon.
“hey ma” I said sadly.
“what’s wrong?” she asked.
“just not feeling it today..but what’s up with you? you good?” I held back tears as images of me,the kids and kelly popped up in my head.
“you are not fine christopher what is wrong?” she saw right through me.
“I fucked up..like always” My voice cracked.
“oh God! You’re still stuck on kelly?” she said obviously pissed.
“she’s my wife ma! I married her so obviously I love her..I don’t know how to make my feelings for her go away” I said truthfully.
“Christopher she is no damn good for you! I usually don’t cuss so you know when I cuss that means I’m mad..listen to me..she is no good for you! and I told her ass th-“
“when?” I opened my eyes. “when did you tell her that?”
“bab-“
“ma..di-“
“your mother planted the seed now its about to grow”charles’s voice echoed through my head.
“what the fuck did you say to kelly?” I snapped as my blood pressure started rising.“boy I know you’re not raising your damn vo-“
“what did you say to her ma? don’t lie to me” I said sternly.
“I told her that she was no good for you and that she needs to leave you alone beca-“
I hung up the phone. I stood up and ran over to the stairs. I ran up the stairs then opened the door and walked out. I slammed the door closed then walked down the hallway.
“chris!!” rita yelled as she ran over to me.
“rita I’m sorry but you gotta go” I said dryly as I walked to the front door.
“what? you want me to leave?” she asked sadly.
“yes rita I do” I walked out of the front door and started walking towards my brand new red and black bugatti.
“why? I cleared the people out like you told me too” she said as she followed me.
“because I’m not over kelly” I said truthfully as I opened the door and hopped in. I was about to close the door but rita stood in my way.
“you’re bullshitting right?” she looked at me like I was crazy.
“no rita I’m not” I looked in her eyes. “I’m sor-“
“yeah ok” she slammed the door closed.
I sighed as I started the car up.
20 minutes later I arrived at my former home. I opened my door and got out the car. I locked my doors then walked to the front door. I took a deep breath then knocked on the door.Kelly opened the door. I looked at her up and down. She had on a purple silk robe with some white fuzzy slippers.
“ch-chris what are you doing here?” she stuttered.
“um damn..” I looked at the tattoo of my name on her breast. “I came to um.. I came t-“
“babe who is that?” I heard a man yell.Kelly looked in my eyes.
“its just..I’ll be back” she yelled before she stepped out of the house and closed the door.
“oh ol boy is your man now?” I asked.
“I guess you can say that” she looked down.
“oh..cool..that’s cool..glad you’re happy” I looked down.
“wh-what are you doing here chris?” she asked.
“I wanted to see the kids so..I mean I know its not frida-“
“why didn’t you call?” she asked.
“uh..” I scratched my head. “I did..you didn’t get the call?”
“no I didn’t..they’re at brandy’s house..so I’m sorry” she said sadly.
“oh don’t even sweat it..I’ll just see them later I guess” I bit my bottom lip.
“ok..” she said sadly.
“well..you need to go back in there so..don’t wanna leave him waiting” I laughed a little. “plus I gotta go anyway so I’ll um I guess I’ll see you around some time”
“yeah..” she turned back around and opened her door.
“kel-kelly” I stuttered.
“yeah?” she looked back at me.
“I’m glad you’re happy..you deserve to be happy” my voice cracked as I tried to hold back my tears. “if anybody deserves happiness its you”
“thanks” she smiled a little. “I’m glad you’re happy with rita”
“yeah..” I said sadly as I turned around..I started walking towards my car. “kelly?”
“yeah?” she said.
“can I tell you a little secret?” I asked.
“sure” she said right away.
“I’m not happy with her” I looked back at her. “never was..”
I could see the tears forming in her eyes as she held her mouth open.
“go back in the house..its looks like it might rain so..” I said sadly as I opened my car door up.
“how can you tell? its night time..” she said sadly.
“just have a feeling..so go in the house” I got in my car and closed the door.As soon as she walked in the house and closed the door it started raining.I started my car up and sped out of her driveway. I put a cd in my cd player and pressed play as I sped down the road.
“sunshine blue skies please go away my girl has found another and gone away. With her went my future my life is filled with gloom so day after day I stay locked up in my room. I know to you it might sound strange but I wish it would rain..”
The legendary temptations sung to my soul as I switched lanes.
“cause so badly I wanna go outside..such a lovely day but everyone knows that a man ain’t suppose to cry. Listen I gotta cry cause crying eases the pain oh yeah. People this hurt I feel inside words could never explain.I just wish it would rain”
I pulled over on the side of the road and laid my head down on the steering wheel as tears ran down my face.
“You’re about to feel a pain worse than death..matter of fact..you’re gonna wish you were dead” Charles’s voice echoed through my head.“FUCK! FUCK!FUCK!” I hit the steering wheel then shook it.
“you’re not gonna die and keri is not gonna die..matter of fact a person is not gonna die..but something is gonna die” His voice popped up in my head again.
“my marriage..my fucking marriage that’s what he was trying to tell me..”
HARSH
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